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Sebabnya bila kita dah tak ada tempat untuk bersandar baru kita sedar Allah tu sebenarnya sandaran yang paling kukuh

‘ Sabarlah sebab sabar itu indah”
Cliché der..
Indah apa sabar? Aku cuma rasa sakit
Kenapa sakit?
Sebab aku tak kuat, tak qowiy macam yang lain
Entahlah, iman aku nipis macam tisu kot
Tapi tisu pun tak boleh pandang rendah. Even tisu pun boleh absorb air. LOL. Lame weh, lame

Ada hikmahnya yang kita tak Nampak
Ujian itu bukan melemahkan
Tapi aku tak faham kenapa manusia sekarang ni tak habis-habs nak puaskan hati manusia?
Nak result elok la..yada yada.The list goes on and on.Ceit
Amboi mengata.Hang pun sama  -.-

Mungkin benar ‘FASABRUN JAMIL’
Allah tu ada dengan orang-orang yang sabar
Bila jatuh, bila terjatuh. Jangan lama-lama dok kat bawah tu
Sebab perjalanan masih panjang
…………………………………………………………………………………………….
Aku tahu, kau qowiy, kau kuat, ada motivasi tinggi
Aku manusia bruh, siapa kata aku tak ada masa jatuh
Macam mana kau bangun
Kalau rasa berat sangat nak bangun tu, cer bangun pada satu waktu di mana semua orang tengah seronok dibuai mimpi
Bangun?
Qiamullail. Re-charge iman
Payah beb nak bangun malam
Kenapa nak beri alasan tak boleh bangun?
Kata nak bangun dari jatuh?
Padu bhai
Sampai bila nak static dekat tempat yang sama saja bila orang lain dok race nak masuk syurga?
Serious.
Kuatnya seseorang bukan kerana siapa dia
Tapi siapa Tuhannya
Hiduplah sebagai hamba yang taat. Tinggi mana pun kita ni, hebat mana pun kita, semua Allah punya

Last
Jangan biar SNS * baca Sosial Network Sites* kawal hidup kita
Kita manusia, kita hamba. Pilihlah siapa Tuhan kita
Dunia atau Pencipta Dunia? The choice is yours

Hakikatnya, semua datang dari Allah





Standing up

I must be honest. This hasn’t been what I wanted it to be. When I started this, I did it with one objective in mind; to grow. Instead, I have succumbed to what people expect of me. I started writing less and worrying more of what people perceive my writings as.

It’s been a while. I was just in the corner of my room, the dark empty corner I despise of. I struggled to grip what went through my head. I just felt empty inside. Of little worth. I felt weak. Helpless.

Expectations have been growing around me, pushing me into this downward spiral of negativity. Day in day out, my focus has been shifting. “A’s”, “achievements has been circulating my mind. I admit, my intentions haven’t been as pure as I preach for it to be.

I must practice what I preach. To look beyond this silly game of comparisons and allow myself to be who I am. I must grow beyond this single minded pursuit of achievements, and reinstate my principles of development regardless of the repercussions that may tag along. I must forget about trying to be "the best", because I never wanted to be. That wasn’t my drive, that wasn’t what made me who I am today. It was the perception and faith I held in my own efforts that kept me content, to know I realized every possible measure to grow, to learn and to make progress. To be “my best” was all I needed to be. I need to remind myself of this.

I realize that regardless of who I am, I am still growing. It’s okay for me to not feel okay. It’s okay to feel empty, to seek help, to have moments where I want to walk alone yet talk to those dear to me. Regardless of where I have been and what I have done, I realize I still need the help and support of those dear to me. The people around you have partly shaped you into who you are today, thus they will shape you into who you are tomorrow. Its human for our enthusiasm to fluctuate. It is also in human nature to rise above these personal emotional struggles and seek adjustments as we move forward.

Don’t get me wrong. I appreciate everything that has come my way. Alhamdulillah. I want you to know that I am struggling, and I appreciate every moment of it. Everybody struggles. Everybody faces hardships, most of which we are oblivious to. It doesn’t take much to open up and see these hardships that others endure, and to remind yourself that everybody needs to walk this rough road together. I feel more in touch with people and things around me. It’s in our deepest struggles that we re-evaluate our approach and open the doors that we’ve kept shut for so long. As I have often been reminded, Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear (Baqarah; 286)


I’m not here to lament on my problems, because such things are often  over-dramatized. I’m here to state that I am not here to showcase the glories that my pasts have held, but this journey in entirety. Regardless of what people make of it, I am here to express myself, the hardships I face and the stones I’ve stumble upon. After all, how is one suppose to comprehend the sweetness of success if he/she does not endure the bitterness of failure?

Results


As children we were born into a life where we were told to do and not to do. We were told of what we could achieve, and what would stay as a dream in the background of our lives. Our limits we defined and we were told to follow them, and not bang into many walls along the way. As time proceeded, we banged into some of these walls, and we fell along the way. We propped ourselves up, and continued forward. We found out that some of these walls weren’t as high as they were pictured. We found out that expectations are just opinions. We found out, that the seemingly impossible is possible and that persistence and perseverance will have its day of glory and celebration. Dreams do come true, but only when we strive and work for them.

As SPM is getting near, a lot of things happened and perhaps one that may catch my interest are the trial result. I have often lived by a quote ‘Dare yourself to dream and dare yourself to fulfill it’. A dream is just a dream if we don’t work for them. I don’t want to be a just a dreamer though.

 My results were not really good indeed. I have only scored a few A+ and the rest were a plethora of A’s, A-‘s and the letters that come after that which aren’t so eye pleasing. My chemistry teacher, Teacher Salahiah is a very positive person indeed. Every single times we got a not really good result especially in Chemistry she often says to us ‘ Kamu jangan risau. Still got time lah sebelum SPM.Result jatuh ni mungkin sebab you slipped a few steps perhaps. Buat banyak latihan. InsyaAllah saya yakin kamu boleh dapat A+. Jangan down sangat. Jangan stress.’ Indeed she always spread positive vibes to us.  I am not really sure who will read this since I don’t publicize this page very well but for those who do, I hope this have made dent in your heart no matter what size it is.

Happiness is what we perceive. A couple A’s could have brought world’s joy to some or the great sorrows to others. What I am trying to say is results dont matter, your efforts do. You know how much you have done as we all aren’t paid equally for our efforts. Just give it your all, because, though life may not seem fair for all, it will be. We may not be paid today for our efforts yesterday, nor may we paid tomorrow, but one day we will. Just ensure your intentions are pure and your effort is second none. InsyaALLAH.

What do you want on life? How do you define success? Do you want the best possible results for an exam? Of course you would, but should that come neglecting  other skills, religions and your relationships with other people? My goal was never been to be the best. It has only been about being better. I hate when I am compared to people.We are all different, born and raised differently. Never you should compare yourself to other people. Results are that to be compared to yourself, to track where you have progressed, never to be a benchmark against other people’s abilities. Never underestimate people, never feel that you are better or worse. We are all different. We have different strengths and weaknesses.

What I am trying to get across here is not to strive for THE BEST . Just strive your best. Perhaps that way what’s best will come to you. Follow what you please at your own will, but in the end, be content with what you receive. All the best ahead.


Minuscule

its surreal


Howdy guys!

I don’t think it is too late wishing all of you Eidul Adha. Load of  homeworks, worksheets here and there burden me this holiday even it just only for a week. Well SPM is just around the corner. Everyday it keeps mingling around my head. Sure I didn’t manage to do all the homeworks-being a lazybum because of the ‘balik kampung’ on my maternal side celebrating Eidul Adha. Family gathering ,small kenduri-alike distracted me though.I really cant help myself from distracting!

Obviously my life when it comes to studies, is a partial wreck. Its only partial because I am still enjoying my life even SPM keeps dancing in front of me as I have it now but I cant seem to find any constant motivation to keep me glued on the chair. I am constantly driven by events outside the books. I guess I have to start getting rid of these distractions!

Then these things popped! It sure help :)

 We should realised the main reason for us being here/there in school was for education and yeah I put emphasis on that. But remember education is not just from reading and exams. Its about applicating what we learn into life as well as picking up important soft skills; communicating, interaction,etc. 
Its okay to make mistakes. Billionaires lose billions. Students drop grades. People forget. Its human. The challenge in life is not to never fail, but to rise in every failure. Just remember failure is just another stepping stone to success.

In the end Niat is the most important in whatever we do, for it sets the path we are to walk upon. For 1998’s we’re still got time to struggle! Break a leg guys!!  All the best head.

Lastly  “Allah did not guarantee studying 24/7 ensuring your success. Allah did not guarantee working 24/7 ensuring the wealth. But Allah guarantees whoever performs Solah he’ll succeed!


only hope





Hello friends \ Here is some short thought

As a child I used to sit by the window trying to take in the fact that the world was vast and we would live a life that made no dent in the world we know. We were told that life is what us is. Try not to bump into too many walls as we drive past it. As time proceeded I realised we can make a difference. You can make as big as dent in those walls as we work for. A little support and faith goes a long way.
 
Sometimes I always wondering of how life’s journey awed me so much. I just love to watch a journey of life that sometimes poured my heart out. Of how ones life can change my whole perspective about do and donts in our life. About how we must learn to stop judging people as we were born with full of flaws. But we often forget and act like we are the king and ruler of this world. Like we are the most perfect-est creature (sorry for the inappropriate usage of word lol ) in this world and always complaining –this and these.


But we forget the most important life’s rule only Allah the only and only one that can judge us. Its your good deeds justify you in front of Allah to prove that we deserve to be back in Heaven soon. So soon. Not with your beauty, wealth etc etc. Only iman differentiate us.Only iman

Labyrinth

always


Holla Earthling!
 I just got back from my Arabic and Chemistry camp at school but because of the intense euphoric of starting a new blog I am about to update my blog no matter how tired I am. To be honest being a form 5 student really tiring sometimes- chasing a good grade, work hard to achieve school’s target GPS camp here and there. Obviously  it’s a burden to me or I must say all of form 5 students . Surviving SPM is no joke after all. I just want to share some thoughts that I had been writing  it in my notes last week as I am so inspired with ‘someone’ that really awed me with his positivity and optimism in every inch of his life.

Frankly, the road to success has its ups and down. Like literally, when we are on the top of the bumpy road, it all seems easy to keep going. All we need to do is just follow the gravity. We can even run if we want to. Feel the wind help push you from behind .We feel so relieved until we reached the bottom. Great, now we have to climb up the bumpy road. We must defy the gravity and use all our will and energy to reach the top again. Its hard .Really.

 Sometimes it frustrating, cause we are so tired of going up and down and rest for a while, make a pit stop maybe. But eventually we will have to keep going or we  will die starvation and dehydration. Lol. At this point, having faith and being positive would be real helpful. The end of the road will lead us to a place of unimaginable mouth-watering things (sorry for the err analogy) you would not even want to rest for it, if you knew how beautiful and magnificient the place really is. If we all knew we would probably even crawl up the road we had to.

Unfortunately, not all of us will make it there. Not with us always procrastinating in going through the steep part of the road.Not with us being distracted with things that are trying to stop us from reaching the other side. Not with u expecting to grow wings and take the easy way out. Life is not a bed of roses. You don’t necessarily need to have physical strength to make it cross. A strong tough guy might faint when he see snake slithering on the road. Mental strength is important too. Positivity works far better than we know.

When life throws you stones or rocks or whatever and staying strong seems like the hardest thing ever, remember that its bigger chance for you to succeeded. In religious point of view, more challenges would mean more chances to get rewards because Allah is testing our patience and how we deal with a problem also to see if we will go back to Him for help. So hey (to me and you) doesn’t mean that He loves us? He is giving us many opportunities to prove ourselves to Him, so grab these chances to prove that we DESERVE to be back home in heaven.

In general point of view the challenges in life should be a motivation. SPM should be the catalyst in our life. And even if people are bringing us down its our chance to prove them that we are not pieces of nothing in their life. Make your our mark by proving them wrong, and make them wish they had never underestimated us. Even when we TRY that’s already a sign of proving them wrong.

And lastly wishing you goodluck and bittaufiq wannajah in every single thing that we do in our life. Especially 1998’s.

Starting

We all have been demanded things, but we should never bow down to them. Demands can ignite a spark of interest, but never do anything because you are demanded to. Realise your intention and purpose to achieve a certain objective before embarking on any journey. It has taken a while for me to realise mine here, but I finally did.
 Social networks are great but they never have allowed me to fully express my concerns and perceptions of my surroundings and situations. 


Here to express. Appropriate comments are always welcomed. Happy reading.